Devotions

FYI: This post will be partially in English and particlly in español. I can't help it. I just watched un magnifico documentario and now I can't stop thinking about how much I love español and how much I want to use it to ayudar y apoyar communities pobres. (For the record, I know how to speak Spanish and I'm not just inserting random cognates into my English to sound smart.) I'm sitting here in my comfy dorm room, with my comfy covers, and I watched a documentary called "Living on One Dollar" en mis pijamas. Con mi computadora. My Macbook, to be exact. And although I'm super thankful for these things, it makes me a little uneasy to watch footage of so many people without. Without food, medicine, a basic income... it really opened my eyes, which it always does. Every time. You'd think that I'd be so used to the heart-wrenching stories about los pobres internacionales, but I am not. Every time it gets me because I've met some people in extr...

An idea that has been frequenting my thoughts recently is simplistic and fairly basic, but vastly forgotten and misunderstood: Don't base your worth off of someone's past opinions of you, or even the hopes that one day someone will fully love and accept you. Base your worth off of the knowledge that right now, in this very second, God loves you and values you more than even the most precious aspects of the earth He created. I can get pretty wordy, so let's break it down: 1. Don't let your past define how you see yourself 2. Don't let the hope of a future spouse's approval get you through life 3. Realize that in the right now, in the present, God adores you. And that is enough. I've been struggling to accept all three of these pieces of advice lately. First, the past. It's a jerk. Especially for people with OCD who have a really hard time letting things go. I replay scenes over and over in my head, and I would not wish that upon my w...