Devotions

FYI: This post will be partially in English and particlly in español. I can't help it. I just watched un magnifico documentario and now I can't stop thinking about how much I love español and how much I want to use it to ayudar y apoyar communities pobres. (For the record, I know how to speak Spanish and I'm not just inserting random cognates into my English to sound smart.) I'm sitting here in my comfy dorm room, with my comfy covers, and I watched a documentary called "Living on One Dollar" en mis pijamas. Con mi computadora. My Macbook, to be exact. And although I'm super thankful for these things, it makes me a little uneasy to watch footage of so many people without. Without food, medicine, a basic income... it really opened my eyes, which it always does. Every time. You'd think that I'd be so used to the heart-wrenching stories about los pobres internacionales, but I am not. Every time it gets me because I've met some people in extr...

An idea that has been frequenting my thoughts recently is simplistic and fairly basic, but vastly forgotten and misunderstood: Don't base your worth off of someone's past opinions of you, or even the hopes that one day someone will fully love and accept you. Base your worth off of the knowledge that right now, in this very second, God loves you and values you more than even the most precious aspects of the earth He created. I can get pretty wordy, so let's break it down: 1. Don't let your past define how you see yourself 2. Don't let the hope of a future spouse's approval get you through life 3. Realize that in the right now, in the present, God adores you. And that is enough. I've been struggling to accept all three of these pieces of advice lately. First, the past. It's a jerk. Especially for people with OCD who have a really hard time letting things go. I replay scenes over and over in my head, and I would not wish that upon my w...

I have a confession to make. Up until this very moment, I had lived my life following God's Word to the best of my abilities-- except when it came to one all-consuming, worldly thing. Boys. You can laugh at my choices of phrasing, because I'm laughing at myself. I somehow thought that if I followed God in most aspects of my life, specifically the parts that were easy to do so, that I would be okay... that following Him when it was comfortable would be good enough. And when it came to relationships-- to "talking" and "dating" and "spending the rest of my life with someone--" I just kind of went rogue and did my own thing. God was there to help me pick up the pieces after my failed relationships, but I rarely looked to Him in the middle of them. And it wasn't bad enough to stop thinking about God during these flings; I blatantly ignored what His Word said about relationships, and love in general. I wasn't oblivious to what Go...

You've heard the famous "Do not worry" speech that Jesus told in Matthew, right?   So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’   For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.   But seek first his kingdom  and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.   Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. -Matthew 6: 31-34 NIV It's a pretty well known passage. I would even go so far as to say that the reason it's so popular is because there's an increase in anxiety among people these days, and this is a pretty good remedy for that. "Don't worry about material things, God will provide." That's pretty nice. Or what about "Don't worry about tomorrow, live in the present, focus on today." Solid advice. And if you're someone who just bl...

Tonight  I stayed in the dorms and watched an old Hilary Duff movie. I've seen my fair share of Disney flicks, so I was expecting it to be cheesy and thankfully I wasn't painfully distracted by the horribly auto-tuned love songs and the hilariously colorful choices of attire.  No, I watched the movie from a less judgmental perspective. And I'm glad I did, because as bizarre as it sounds, I was actually inspired. Please allow me to explain. Hilary's character, Terri, was undergoing this romantic love story with a shy British guy. They were both artists, they both believed in the power of their dreams, blah blah blah. But the chemistry their characters shared actually convinced me that they were in love. I know it's a movie, and so does every other teenage girl that watches movies not unlike this one. But why did I believe it? Why did I suddenly find myself rooting for them to make it, because they obviously were meant to be? Their love was the good kind. ...

So I realize this post title is very similar to the one below it. I promise it's not because I'm unoriginal or boring, but because GOD IS AWESOME and taught me a great lesson yesterday about trying to get out of the holes you're put in, and it just so happened to correlate with the title from a previous post, so out of curiosity I just happened to read the post, and it was exactly the message I needed to hear as I'm sitting here in this hole. (Disclaimer: not actually sitting in a hole. It's a metaphor, people.) Do you sometimes just hate going through crappy stuff? Like really despise it. Like you've been sobbing all day about something and it even made you break down in a Goodwill changing room sad. For example. I hate being sad because I look up to heaven through mascara-filled tears and mutter "God, why? Why are you letting this happen?" Then I feel dramatic and silly because scripture talks a lot about hardships, and how they're all for o...