Devotions

 In 2024, Alex and I committed $15,000 to Crossroads' "10X Push," where thousands of people decided they'd give above and beyond their normal tithe to see God's kingdom be brought to earth in a big way through our church. For us, this number was not random, but very specific. We heard God tell us that He has an amazing plan for our family and would be blessing us with a miracle child through adoption. $15k was the average cost to adopt, and so we said, "God: if you want this for us, and you want our family to grow through adoption, we are relying solely on YOU. We're being obedient to the calling you've placed in front of us and we're walking in faith to see what you do with our willing hearts. Our family is going to look how YOU want it to, in YOUR timing, may YOUR will be done." It was a pretty big risk because that was all we had in our savings at the time. But we felt so strongly that in a few years, we'd be able to look back to that ...

Today I feel like I stepped on some toes. But I've been feeling like that a LOT lately, so it's causing me to wonder if  this "just keeps happening" or if it's me. I think I'm leaning toward the latter.  The issues all seem to stem from me wanting justice, equity, and fairness, especially for those who have been historically robbed of these things. And if I see something happening that I perceive to be a result of someone underserved being... well... underserved (NOTE: the word is under-served, not  un-deserved), then I feel as if it's my duty to call the wrong-doer out on it. Or at least get to the bottom of where the ball got dropped in the first place. I somehow always feel this urge to take it upon myself to find the broken cog in the machine... to find out what in the process could be improved so that the injustice never happens again.  And like I said -- it's this compulsion I feel. It's not something I choose to think about or care about, bu...