Not too much... just enough.

By -

 Well, in my "Phonics and Literacy" course yesterday, we focused completely on spelling and writing, and why kids stop loving to write... how we write, hold our pencils, etc. I saw it as a little nudge from my Father, yet again, for me to keep on writing... so here I sit. 


I've been reflecting on a few posts ago... about be being a "try-hard" and how I wish I weren't "so much" all the time. A book I was reading yesterday said that amazingly, most women feel they are both "too much" and "not enough" at the same time, which is hard to conceptualize I'm sure for men. But I'd venture to say that most women get it. Because with every "too much," there's a corresponding "not enough." It's like a double-whammy. 


I wish I weren't so talkative. I'm not quiet enough.

I wish I weren't so hyperactive. I'm not peaceful enough. 

I wish I weren't so judgmental. I'm not gracious enough. 


I'm working on recognizing these lies I tell myself, and I'm at least able to spot them now. But if I'm honest... knowing the diagnosis without  knowing the cure doesn't do much... other than leave me feeling out of options with nowhere to turn. 


The only "cure" I know is Jesus. The only remedy for my negative self-talk and the only combative weapon to the lies of this world is constantly reminding myself the Goodness found in Him. In reminding myself what He says about me, and clinging to it. In rejecting anything not of Him and leaving the past in the past. I don't need to bring up my failures from the dead to counsel them, because that doesn't make any sense. 


Today is a new day, and I can choose to fix my eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of my faith. He will give me the grace and stamina I need for today... in the exact portion I need. Not "too little" or "too much," but just enough. 

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,  fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

-Hebrews 12:1-3 NIV

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The World that We Live In- A Prayer

By -
Brandon Flowers, the lead singer of The Killers, included a beautiful lyric in one of his songs, "The World that We Live In." This is the world that we live in, and I feel myself get tired. Boy, is this ever true. I just started a new job this summer, which is so exciting, but in all of that excitement I have been so busy adjusting to working life that I really haven't had time to poke my head out and look up at the world around me.  In some respects, that's a good thing. I have been able to temporarily shield myself from state of our nation and the hurtful rhetoric being used against the least of these. However, when I do have time, or if there is something that is just too big to ignore, it hits me like a train. I am suddenly, instantly aware of just how broken our world is, and how deeply we need our Lord Jesus to come. Maranatha . And, when I get overwhelmed… When my thoughts are too vast and too incomprehensible and I have a hard time sleeping at night,
Read more
By -
John 13-15 Check out http://www.bible.gateway.com/ to read todays verses or go to the BIBLE READER to the right of this post. So Jesus does something big in the reading tonight. He washes his disciples feet. washing someones feet was usually done by the lowest ranking person in the room, it was a dirty job because everyone wore sandals on the dirt roads, plus everyone walked everywhere. When Jesus does this he knows that his time on earth is coming to an end and that he needs to teach his disciples another lesson: humility. We all need to take this lesson in, especially in the world we live in today, sometimes we think things are beneath us to do, maybe it's babysitting your little brother, moving the lawn, cleaning up the house, or something more. But we need to learn that we need to be willing to do God's work in the world, doing whatever it takes to get His message out there. Jesus tells his disciples- "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, s
Read more
By -
Matthew 27-28 Read these chapters now with the BIBLE READER to the right of this post or at http://www.biblegateway.com/ SLOW DOWN AND THINK ABOUT IT! To me, there are two things that get in the way of making good, clean decisions: Hate, and Love. Two passionate emotions, which BOTH can lead to rash decisions you're bound to regret later. Today is just a reminder to everyone that even though in the moment, things might seem fine and dandy, every decision done out of these emotions will come back to you somehow. Sometimes, we just need to slow down and think about it. We need to take the time to THINK, instead of getting caught up in the moment. I know this is a silly example, but take Homecoming for example. You know, the dance at the beginning of the school year? People tend to live a little too in the moment, so I've noticed. They get mad at people for STUPID things, and they dance a little to close with people they'll regret the next day. I've counted several instanc
Read more